On Gratitude

Overflowing with Gratitude

Are you someone who holds former lovers and relationships close to your heart?

Whether the relationship was platonic or romantic, I have kept my encounters in the treasure chest of my heart. Everyone comes into our lives for a reason. At least I believe so. Everyone and every situation happens for a divine reason. To teach us everlasting memories that remains deep within the heart.

I cannot help but feel such gratitude to all of the incredible people who have come into my life, whether fleeting or long-lasted relationships. Sometimes, you learn lessons from someone and you hear a whisper in your heart, “it’s time to let go”.

I often think to myself, had I stayed with former romantic partners, I wouldn’t have evolved into who I am today. With zero regrets or grudges on myself, I know that I am exactly where I am meant to be today.

Do you have revelations where you feel a deep yearning for something more?

When I was a little girl, I looked up to my mom. “Mama, I want to be like you when I grow up. I want to be a mama. The best mama in the world. That’s what I’m growing up to be.” With such a sweet memory in the back of my mind, I also went through my adolescence and young adult life believing that I was never going to have children of my own.

Let me explain.

Between the ages of 10 to 26, I was very bulimic. And when I wasn’t bulimic, I was anorexic. Through puberty, my menstrual cycle was all out of whack. Some months, it never came. Some years, I’d only get it every 4 months. And when I finally opened up to my mom about it, I went to my family doctor. Here’s what he said to me at 14 years old: If you keep this up, you will never have children.

Fast forward to 18 years old, my menstrual cycle was every 4 months or 6 months. And the doctor said, “Your body isn’t producing the hormones it requires to birth a baby to term.” And a part of me was absolutely relieved. Meanwhile, my mom wept.

From 18 to 28 years old, I believed that I would never have any children. And I told myself, “I don’t want any kids anyway. The world doesn’t need any more children.” But here we are today, many moons later, I was able to give birth to a healthy boy. I honestly didn’t even think it was possible.

Life is a Gift

At the time I wrote the original article of this post, I was only 6 months postpartum with our first child. I think to myself, what if I continued living believing that I couldn’t have children at all. How would I be today?

Overwhelming gratitude fills me to the brim and explodes out of me.

Though after having 2 children of our own, some days are a challenge. But gratitude is always there tapping me on the shoulder. They have helped you and guided you to evolve and transform even more. They’ve guided you to become an even better version of yourself.

It brings tears to my eyes how much love I’ve been blessed with.

I hope that you will reflect on your life, whether you have children or not, feeling more gratitude for the great and not-so-great experiences that have come your way so far.

After having two children, it has truly made me realize how birth is truly a miracle.
Life is a gift.
Cherish every moment through the ups and downs.

My friends, what are you grateful for?